i want to hate him.

i want to hate him so much that when i see him i shoot hate rays in his direction and he knows to move away before he gets hurt.

but i can’t.

i want to tell him that he is horrible,

stupid,

slutty,

mean,

a bad person,

and treat him like crap.

but he’s not.

i want to let him know that he’s not perfect,

that his breath smells,

his hairs stupid,

and his nose is too big,

but they’re not.

i want to let him know that it tortures me,

just to see his face,

and it does.

but at the same time,

mine lights up in a smile so big

that i can’t even hold it back

even when he frowns when he sees it’s me.

i want him out of my life, i want to hate him, i want- i want-.....

but i love him. ♥



im so stupid sometimes....